It’s 3 am and I’m still awake because I had to much coffee and the caffeine is jumping in my blood. And it does not makes me happier that I have only 4 hours left for sleep. It’s going to be a long night.
And these are the moments my mind is filled with thoughts and the most beautiful ideas. And I decided to write something for you guys after a long time. I just found these questions a minute ago in my phone.
“It’s not weird right, to think your adopted? I always thought so, and I would’ve been sure if my mom hadn’t showed me the baby photos.. I always thought we had nothing in common. It always felt like I was born in the wrong place. It always felt like I came from a different planet. And I was wondering if a lot of people feel this way? felt this way, like me.
But still, I felt special. It felt like I was the only one. That I was alone in this. I didn’t belong here.
Now, I’m getting older and it scares me how much I have in common with my family. It scares me I’m just like them. But I don’t want to be like them, even though I love them so much. Their just no longer a role model for me. They are not somebody I want to be. If I’m ever going to be a mother, I don’t want my children to feel the same way about me as I feel for my mom. I don’t want them to be scared to disappoint me, it’s a part of life. But I even if I don’t want to, I’ll always have a lot in common with them.
I just have to remind myself I don’t want to do certain things in a certain way because I don’t want to make their mistakes.
The train ride is over”
That’s a funny thing about traveling. This train ride was like ten minutes. But I got cut off, because I had to get out. I had limited time. Someone else decided when I had to stop. I lost some control.
Hope you liked it!